So after writing on my blog this morning I decided the best thing for my funk was to face my fear head on. After discussing my experience and committing my demons to blog space, I found going to the movie "World Trade Center" was the thing to do. Not avoid reality, but take an active roll in it.
The movie was not as horrible emotionally as I thought it would be, it was actually interesting and uplifting in it's own way. I guess it was because it dealt with two survivors and their stories. I found I was much less traumatized by this movie than I was with the opening of Michael Moore's "Fahrenheit 9/11." I will always remember that opening, black movie screen with only the noises of 9-11 to suggest the day. So very powerful, much so I thought than actual footage that we had all seen a million times. I could hear people "sniffing" around me today, but generally at the footage that depicted the men thinking and talking about their families while trapped. It is classic Oliver Stone, so there is some pretty graphic violence. But heck, it is 9-11 depicted after all, can't get much more violent than the real thing.
Would I recommend this movie? I don't know. I can't imagine it would have as much impact as a rental, but I would suggest paying matinee price for it.